40 Years. Is it a day to be happy or sad? To celebrate or feel defeated? What is wrong? Is it because I feel I have not accomplished anything in the past 40 years of my life on earth? But I have... I have a husband who loves me more than himself. He will do anything to keep me happy. Tolerate my silliness, tantrums and also my senseless arguments. He is the biggest/best blessing granted by God.... even though I don't deserve him. Then why does my heart feel so burdened and heavy... Is it because I have not been the best mother to my children? Why do I think I could have been better? I have not sacrificed a lot for my children like many other mothers have. There have been times when I have been lazy to cook something special for them. I have many times given more importance to my mobile than my children. I have said many things in anger, which would hurt anyone, let alone a 12 and 7-year-old. There are hundreds of mistake from my side, which makes me wonder if I am even f...
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I have always wanted to restart my blog, which was mostly about being a mother and everything and anything my baby did. Well now after 8 years we are a family of two boys, big-J and small-J aged 11 and 7 and of coarse my better (or should I say 'best') half and I. What better day to start a new blog than on my 39th birthday... So here I am, just one year short of being one of the '40 year old Aunties'. My morning started with a heavy heart, as the thought that my mother is not there to wish me anymore hit me real bad. I miss her, miss her very badly.Then with every call or wish I got from friends and relatives made me more depressed thinking that I am getting older and fatter (this feeling is ALWAYS haunting me). But On A Happier Note, I am blessed with three wonderful people who make this life the most beautiful place to want to live. My BJ, SJ and my BH. I have got 39 + 39 + 39 kisses today and two dresses which the BH got for me while he was in different city f...